a journey never forgotten...

First off, I want to just express to James and Jill how sorry I am for your loss. My heart breaks for you and I'm so sorry that things didn't work out as planned. I wanted that uneventful and boring pregancy that I had with the boys for you, but unfortunately that just isn't what happened.

For those of you that don't know but have probably guessed after reading that, we miscarried the lil' baby on Tuesdsay night. Very sad situation for all involved. I think the worst part of all was having to tell Jill the sad news.

A big thank you to all that have been following and encouraging us along the way. It's been fun keeping up with the blog and I've come to learn that we had more followers than I thought.

Also, a big thanks to the Kecks , the future Alipaz's, and the Triggy's for being with us on Tuesday night and taking care of me and Scotty and sticking around at the hospital to the wee hours of the morning. Kasey - a big thank you to you for everything. I must say, you definitely are cut out to be a nurse so keep at it girl!! Oh, and your brownies are the perfect medicine.

And to my wonderful husband...words can't even describe the gratitude I have in my heart for you. I think I have fallen in love with you all over again. You have sacrificed so much in the last couple of months and have never complained once. You've supported me through everything. On Tuesday night, I saw your deep love for me which brought tears to my eyes. You handled the situation better than I ever could have imagined. I love you so much! And thank you for everything. I love you more than any burrito.

I'm still trying to wrap my thoughts around all that has happened. It's been a pretty crazy couple days. But this was an amazing journey and I feel so blessed that Jill and James trusted me with their lil' embryos and it saddens me that i wasn't able to carry full term and give them the baby they so badly desired. But I believe the Lord has a purpose for everything even though we have NO idea what it could possibly be.

I'm praying for you James and Jill and pray that you would have peace in this horrible situation! Love you guys!!! And like you said in the card in the flowers - although this journey is over, we have gained friends...lifelong ones...!!

...174bpm

I had another ultrasound today and Melissa (the AWESOME ultrasound technician) said everything looks great. Baby is measuring right on schedule and is measuring perfectly. For those of you that are good with measurements, baby is measuring 2.23cm from head to rump. Heartbeat was up to 174bpm which is perfect. So everything looks great and Melissa (AWESOME ultrasound technician) even gave me permission to call Jill during the ultrasound so she could hear the heartbeat. She was so thrilled to hear the heartbeat. Unfortunately I forgot the camera AGAIN but Melissa (AWESOME ultrasound technician) grabbed her phone and we got the heartbeat and baby on video. Melissa is still trying to send it to me and hopefully it'll come through. So far it hasn't yet.

So, we learned today that baby is looking great and perfect and Melissa is an AWESOME Ultrasound technician! LOL.